The friend are for....

I am just finish watching "American Crime". A famous story of a little girl who murdered by corporal punishment of a women. This is a true story that was happened in Alabama 1961. I told to my friend that Hollywood always good to make movies which is it base on true story, i challenge him to mention any bad movie when the script base on true story, and...he just can't mention it! (Ha, honestly i am not sure of it!).
I don't know why, but i can't punish the mom character in the movie (but i still hate her for murdering). I was really understand how being weak and trapped on herself and even can't see any way out from the problems. I was there before.

I got involved with a man. I knew there are no future with this guy, and i was being told of many friends about that. But i just can't see that, i pushed the relationship get worse than before and my acted finally ruined my life and my career too! I am not blame him in this matter, i see this as a process of being adult and (really hard to say!!) he was maturing me with his childish puerility!! (Ha, it sound i blame him....!!)
Of course, i can't compare my 'little' problem with the mother character, but i just wanna say that it's not easy to get out from our problems if you has no power to awakened yourself.
Lucky me when i stuck with my problems i had a lot of friends (with their own ways), who make me strong and to let me find the way out with my own power then.

Of course it's sound naive but you really need a friend to get some power and then you keep it as a spirit on your own.

Holiday?!

Ahhh...still in holiday's time! After enjoying life without thinking about jobs, it's very very very hard to go back to routine! ( but i was boring too in holiday!)
Honestly, i don't like long holiday...but (i think) people of Indonesia loves being holiday (mostly!!). Long holiday make me bored, because i loved being rush of works, the stress of deadline ahead, and there are no rush in holiday.

Hope the holiday end soon.

Mamamia!

It was a happy time when finally i went with some friends to cinema...Ha! Mamamia is the best movie i seen after the last movie i saw and got disappointed, Lolita! I know Lolita isn't new movie, but finally i decided to watching it after i finished read the book for two times...huh...i hate to see the movie!
I don't know how, but after i finish watching a movie i always have a feeling, and the feeling will keep on until couple of days...and happen to Mamamia too. what the feeling? i felt happy!!! This is not make sense at all...i mean, i have no connection with the story directly you know...but this movie just make me smile from the beginning until end.
Meryl Streep just awesome! And Mr. Brosnan so handsome!
But, i think i learned something from the movie...being old is not the end of everything...HA! It was cliched, but i think i'm right this time!

The Goal's Life

Today, i was gave away a form that must be fill in to my friend. It's a form of curriculum vitae.
About 5 maybe more years ago i was already gave my CV, but this time is for updating for the CV of staff in my company. It's easy to fill in the CV because what i must do just remembering about the years of my graduation in school, but...that question is in the first page. When i opened second page, the question just make me freeze in a while...you know the question? What is the goal in your life? Ha! I really have no idea...i mean in the middle of 30 something, what i must to do is just trying to finish my job the best! I don't really remember what my goal is. Maybe when i was very young i can mentions some of goal, like being a doctor, teacher,singer, a dancer...but now? Hhhggg....

Anyway, i must fill in the question with some answers....I remember i really want to be a writer when i got the first job, but then i don't know how to be a writer it's just a daydreaming for me as the times goes...
So, suddenly i got the answer...i fill the words 'writer' in the blank.

I have no idea the goal will be come true or not, but at least i found my goal's life now after disappeared for so long...

A Jealousy...

1 weeks ago some of friends came from Spain, they went to Spain for attended a festival of art in Zaragoza. The pictures they were show to me just made me soooooooooooooooo jealous!! The unique city of Zaragoza, the people and the view...ahhh....
Today, two of my friends depart to Moscow for attend an exhibition....i am forget the name's of events, but they just say goodbye for Airport! Just now!!!!

Then it comes to me a question, when the time for me?!?